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I called my wife at work this morning, just to talk about nothing. The reason is one that I think only a full time stay at home parent can understand.

Its a mix of repeatedness, boredom, doing 'kid things' all day, responsibility overload, and a myriad of other things. Just like any constant task(s) in life, when you do it long enough, it wears you down. I just wanted to talk about it (oh! how un-manly!!).

Thats not to say that I'm not totally thankful that I'm able to stay at home with my son all day, but there are times when it just gets to be very overwhelming, and to be honest, quite dull at times.

Things a Man Should Know: About Fatherhood

Pretty comprehensive list. Number 69 is sooo true.

We played this for quite a while the other morning.
I didn't do very well, mostly because I don't understand the rules.

We were playing football the other day, and this was the vantage point from my QB point of view.

Sometimes people way over-complicate things.

I think my solution to the gate/child/cat problem is far more simple.

My son doesn't really watch much of the childrens programming I have on tv all day, but when he does actually sit down and watch something, he does just that. Sit and watch. Its glorious few minutes of free time I get to myself.

I usually keep PBS on most of the day, and in the morning we watch Sesame Street. And when I say watch, I mean generally ignore. So I've been trying to figure out which characters on the show Chase wil stop playing and actually sit down and watch. Elmo (duh), The Count, and Trash Gordon. The Count, and Trash Gordon?!

Weird kid.

James Kim found deceased

What a terrible ending to what was at one point a somewhat hopeful story. I watched enough of TechTV to have seen James come across as a smart and decent man. Truly sad.

Yesterday I felt kinda crummy. Today I feel like shit. Super massive head-cold that makes my skull feel like my worst enemy.

So this morning I'm doing something I never wanted to do - I stuck my son in front of the tv and put in a movie (Curious George) to watch.

Most of the time we spend the day playing together, when he's not being Mr. Independant. Reading, coloring, playing with his trucks and blocks and other toys. But I just don't have it in me today, so movie it is. I feel kinda guilty about plunking the boy in front of the idiot box for too long, but there are days when daddy needs daddy recupe time.

This is a problem I never thought of when I signed on for this stay-at-home dad gig.  I don't really get sick all that often, but when I do its usually a doosy. I've also found that I'm reluctant to do things that I used to a lot of. I've all but stopped doing any woodworking, because I'd be in a bit of a pickle if one of my power saws decided to cut a finger or two off. I'm overly careful doing other previously mundane things - using anything sharp that could cause bodily harm, cleaning gutters, even carrying anything heavy up or down a flight of stairs. Since we don't have a babysitter and the boy doesn't go to a daycare yet, I have to keep myself somewhat mobile and aware. With my history of broken bones and stitches and other emergency room visits, thats a lot harder than one would normally think.

What's one thing you regret not doing?

I would've had child(ren) when I was a litle younger. Its hard keeping up with infants and toddlers when you're creeping ever closer to the big 4-0.

This morning my son and I were dancing to some tunes. I wasn't thinking about it at the time, but I was shaking my booty right in front of our living room window, where several of our neighbors have a clear view of what goes on in our living room. They could see me, but the boy is still a tad too short to be seen.
For a brief moment I was kind of embarrased, but then I decided not to give a rats ass, because the boy was giggling like crazy and having a merry good time.

Fatherhood - The ultimate measure of "I don't give a shit how foolish I look. We're having fun!"